time

alright..this is the 2nd day without msn.life's just not that right without it.i just have to tell myself that i'm somewhat in a camp,yeah right,a camp whereby i am accessible to internet except msn and icq.ironic?i know.so..i think i'll just pen my thoughts down now.
supposedly you know you have to do something,but you weigh the consequences too much and you just have no idea what results you're gonna get.so,under such circumstances,would you still risk it?apparently,i'm stuck between the options of risking it and backing out.so,which exactly is the appropriate one for me?i just have no idea.some peeps told me that i'll get a rough idea what the results would be after some serious analysing,however,this is just not the case for me,i mean,how do you analyse something that cannot be analysed?such irony isn't it?i really want to make it good.but,i guess i can only be in control of things which i'm aware of,sadly,the situation i'm in now offers no chance of control,no hints,no nothing,oh well..this just feels sucky doesn't it,peeps,don't get me wrong,i'm not telling u guys about the pc game i'm playing lately,this is in fact a real life situation i'm facing now.i felt i should just give my best shot..but..there're just too many buts and considerations i've weighed..and i guess..it's seriously..too risky.so now,i just have to sit down here and go through some serious thinking on whether i should step on it,or to back out of it.but i just feel i'm too accustomed to stepping..lolx.